I am only a few days away from orientation. This is such an overwhelming experience that I wonder how anybody just out of highschool handles it. I should find out in a couple days about my Pell grant and then be able to get my books. It's a bit frustrating to think that I came down 2 months ago to get a head start on a job and school preparations and still getting things done at the last minute while job hunting. I thought going to Bible college would be an adventure but it's been quite an adventure already!
In the last two months I have had to repair my car multiple times, had to deal with financial aid, apply for jobs with no responses, ran out of money, had some health problems, and had to learn an entire new city. On the other hand, I got a great girlfriend, live in a conservative Christian city (which is quite a change), got a class A drivers license, found a church, met a lot of nice people, and got to see God work in my life multiple times. All in all it's been tough but I don't regret coming and I believe God will provide and sustain me here until he decides I need to go elsewhere.
Yesterday was a great day at church. Although I believe the Holy Spirit is always present, yesterday just seemed to be charged up. Also, there were 2 words that both seemed to apply directly to me. The first one said to set your anxiety aside and worship God. The second one said that He is in control and to trust Him with what stresses you. They called anybody with stress problems up to be prayed over and, of course, Michelle looked right at me. So we went up to the front and it was amazing. When am I gonna learn not to be surprised when people praying for me at the alter seem to know things they shouldn't? This lady was asking questions so specific that it was impossible to believe in coincidence. I came away with a much needed recharging.
Sometimes God waits till you lose everything if that's what it takes to get your attention. Although many of my hard times are the consequence of my own choices, I believe that God still uses them to grow my faith and mold me into what He has planned for my life. I can't fall passed the point that He can't pick me up.
Hi Tony, This is Aunt Debbie. I am so very proud of the man you are today. It is good to know you are doing well. I thank you for sharing your heart and your life, your thoughts,and your feelings. You are a beautiful soul. I too had a revelation or deliverance if you will. The pastor was talking about relationships and what are motives were for some of them. It was something I personally was struggling with. He said that our friends/family can be as millstones around our neck and drag us into the depths of disspare. People can suck the life out of us. Sometimes we have to let go of people who drag us down. I am an exorter in the body. I believe in the edification of the spirit. We need to lift one another up. We need to encourage and pray for one another. I know where my strength comes from. That HOPE for a better tomorrow. I love the Lord with all my heart and have been so blessed. I don't get on here much....Reading what is in your heart is truly a blessing. You have done great things with your life and I would sure love to get to know you if you will let me. I have asked your mom for forgiveness for whatever I said or did all those years ago. I honestly don't know what Kept us all estranged. It is sad. and I pray there can be a healing between one another. God Bless. And I hope to hear from you.
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